Wazzzap guys! So Im having a very long vaca right now since I moved to the States and Im trying to be as productive as I can making some art everyday, either its photography, painting or crafts. Every morning I wake up and have some ideas I start having anxiety until Im finished with what I have planned. Why? I have no idea. Never happened to me before, prob cuz I had a job and regular everyday problems to deal with. Also If im not doing anything productive in the day I feel guilty and anxiety again..sometimes can't even fall a sleep. WTF guys? Whats wrong with me?
When Im finished and happy with the result Im happy...for about few hours then i start having the same shit going on..like Im craving to do something else. Maybe its because I dont have a job and Im not bringing money in our family yet thats why I feel guilt, maybe its because Ive been not active during winter time and now trying to catch up for all thosse months of sitting on my ass and not being creative. Idk! Just chatted with my girl friend she said I should try take some anxiety medicine...arghhh I hate taking medicine especially for things like that, for things I can control (or I think i can). I am the reason why I feel this way (my head doing it to me), right? So I have to do smt to get rid of it. Any advices how to do so? Does anyone have uncontrolled out of blue anxiety? Tell me how you are dealing with it.
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